maandag, september 11, 2017

Photos

Still trying to understand where I lost you.
Or maybe how long you and me were true.

If I could go back in time
Does the moment exist in which if I changed the past, the future would have been different?

Was any path ment to end?

Seems like the future was so close in the past, the past so near the present and the future is so far from the present.

Miss ya my friend.

woensdag, april 04, 2012

Draft of 4/04

---Draft---
[P2]
We walk together, close and side by side
You're next to me, but your stare gives you away
Your attention is not here, you don't hear a word I say
I look at you and can't but smile
This warm feeling, that I forgot, 
because I lost is for a while

[P1]
A cold breeze wakes me up with a pleasant push
I look at you, so beautiful
And notice a soft blush

This all seems so simple and unreal
That my mind does not want to accept
The way you make me feel




woensdag, maart 14, 2012

What's behind those wondering eyes
Uncertain truth or unspoken lies?

What's behind that smile of yours
warming feelings
or pity and remorse?

I come in and see you there
wondering what's going on
Behind those eyes that look at me
fear, doubt, happiness?
Now it's gone

Are you hiding yourself to pleasure me
or is it just uncertainty?


Do you still know who you are
or are your lost in your own head
Thinking about every little detail
till eyes closed you go to bed?

Do you still know who I'm
or did you create a fantasy
which will always work
even if it isn't the real me?

Do I still know what I'm doing here
or I'm lost in my own head
too busy contemplating
till eyes closed I go to bed?

Are you thinking about me
or is it just passing by in our head
Seeming more during the moment
but fading when eyes closed we go to bed?

Eyes open I wake up
knowing nothing more
than when I left the world, last evening
feeling just as sour

During day, I close my eyes
and wonder about what is and shouldn't be
or what should be, but right know, just is not me

Troubled mind, when the sun fades away
Too many visualisations in my head
But Luckely at the end of day
Eyes closed, I go to bed.


maandag, juni 22, 2009

Tekening

My kingdom still stands firm
My walls still look stern
My towers still talk to the sky
No square with a well run dry

The harbor still a crowd
The market still as loud
The fields still get ploughed
The rythm of the work never laid still.

But in the castle, lies the prince
Silent on the floor
Staring at a painting
Which ment so much before

His tears following the trail
of the cut sliced in the canvas
Frowning about this betrail
Crying over what it once was


zondag, mei 17, 2009

492
00:28:39,600 --> 00:28:42,280
Sam...

493
00:28:44,560 --> 00:28:46,690
Did you cheat on her?

494
00:28:46,710 --> 00:28:50,300
Over the years, there have been temptations,

495
00:28:50,320 --> 00:28:52,590
but, no...

496
00:28:52,620 --> 00:28:53,400
I didn't.

497
00:28:53,420 --> 00:28:57,020
Was there a lot of fighting or...

498
00:28:57,050 --> 00:28:59,760
Hardly ever.

499
00:29:00,280 --> 00:29:02,700
Honestly...

500
00:29:03,380 --> 00:29:06,540
It was bad, what I did.

501
00:29:08,120 --> 00:29:11,140
I have no good reason.

502
00:29:11,720 --> 00:29:14,330
I woke up one day...

503
00:29:14,430 --> 00:29:17,450
And I couldn't do it anymore.

504
00:29:17,550 --> 00:29:20,510
It wasn't even a choice.

505
00:29:21,680 --> 00:29:24,310
I had a thought...

506
00:29:24,370 --> 00:29:26,820
Next thing you know...

507
00:29:26,860 --> 00:29:29,600
I'm burning it all down.

508
00:29:29,630 --> 00:29:32,990
I left her.

509
00:29:33,020 --> 00:29:36,600
I don't know why.

510
00:29:36,630 --> 00:29:39,210
I don't know why.

511
00:29:39,240 --> 00:29:43,420
- What kind of a person does that?
- Hell if I know.

zondag, april 12, 2009

My mind is hunted
short days, long nights
By the haunting thoughts
of a loved sight

Although it feels right
That I turned away
Leaving you alone
Troubles my every day

No future left, that I could see
We would have crashed in time
So I did what felt like truth to me
And left you all alone to cry

[Chorus]
You ask me why I go away
Why I don't fight and stay
And I stare you in the eyes, [Fast resume]
Loosen your hands from my own ties 
Let my kiss whisper goodbye
And I left you alone to cry
To cry...
Goodbye...

I still hear your tears
Falling on the floor
When I walked away
And closed that door

Now my troubled soul
Wonders how you are
What I left inside
And if you will survive

I see you dying there 
Right in front of me
And there's nothing I can do
Cause I'm your misery

[Chorus]

I wish I could come to you
Save you from your pain
Be the friend you need
But that would be insane

I can only hope
That you don't destroy,
every memory
That's still so precious to me

And if you end up hating me
It's the price I have to pay
For not still loving you and lie
but leaving you alone to cry...
to cry...

vrijdag, maart 20, 2009

We 've been walking the road
and enjoyed every step
Now we've reached the crossroad
where time stands still

Till this moment this felt so right
But today I stay stunned
To discover how far I came
Without questioning to be sane

I've been to places I never came before
and my gratitude will be every lasting
But it's time to go home again
To be my trueself once more